Hello again I’m back and sorry for the delay, well know let me just jump right in eyes closed I to the next phase of my journey of attraction. And I say jumping in eyes closed because that is exactly what the environment was like when I was transferred to my new site. If this site was shooting to be the all star champs of best most organised,productive and efficient center they were doing a wonderful job modeling on everything you SHOULD NOT DO. Now granted I did not claim to have all the answers and nor was I in a position to really shed light on the various problems plaguing the center, but it was very easy to see that there was some major changes needed.
Well not that we have set up the climate of the environment lets get to the craziness of my oh so moody, bipolorish ,”what the hell is wrong with her now” lead teacher.
Well let’s get started I was transferred to a new center to take up a new position. Now grant it I miss my old site but I am excited for new opportunities. Upon arrival I am placed in one of three classrooms with another new teacher who had only been there a few months. Now this seems fine even though I was under the impression that I was going into a recently opened classroom. Aside from this it seems that the classroom I was supposed to be in was being ran solely by two teacher’s assistants. Again this is somewhat weird, but probably not as weird as having the two most experienced teachers in this part of the center in the same room. This whole arrangement goes on for a couple months, till I finally moved to my rightful room, though what I was not expecting is for the lead teacher in our department to be following me, now was it at the suggesting of the director or was it what she told me she wanted in order to help the new teacher, who knows not surprisingly the truth is irrelevant here just as it will be in the rest of this story. As I tell you for the next 8 months was filled with me constantly having a “wtf” face. No one was on a routine schedule for breaks or lunches, the classroom functioned on a shakey routine and when I dare to to voice and create a said schedule and guidelines for more order I was thoroughly ignored. When voicing that some of the teachers getting to set their own schedule and other teachers being like ft with what was left I simply received a shrug of uncertainty. Well after many failed attempts I simply just refused to voice anything anymore what was the point.So that’s what I did, of course this did not really make things any better but what can you do.My situation became worse when I find my self doing majority of the classroom paperwork, lesson plans, observations,follow ups, and with so little work she did it always baffled me as to why she was never able to finish a lesson plan on time. Now if their was anything that she managed to be good at was apparently the use of imagination. That is about the only conclusion I could dramas to why she seemed to be so oblivious or blind to this unequal distribution of work.
With all of this I felt very powerless to say anything did I believe I would be heared. I mean this was the lead teacher who been here nearly a decade and me just a few months. In addition to all of this somehow she manage to exploit every minor infraction I committed now of course I never brought up her shortcomings because foolishly I hate to throw someone under the bus or be a tattler.I often had to ask myself was this necessary to make me look bad,make her look better especially given she was very much lacking in some areas of the job.
Fortunately i was able to make it through the year battered but not beaten. And I can say that I have taken some hard lessons with me.Looking back I have hard to learn to not try to take things personally and that another’s actions don’t have much reflection on me but themselves.I also have had to learn and work to believe that I do have a right to stand up for myself and that I deserve to be treated respectfully and kindly.Unfortunately yet again my attractiveness does not have here but will be surely coming to a close.
Remember always drink responsibly.
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