“The lookout”

“Whose was looking out for you she said.” I looked at her perplexed, as i tilted my head to the side and after a quick thought all I could do was shrug and state” I don’t know.” But why did someone need to lookout for me anyway I was in a safe and comfortable  place, a place I  choose to settle in because I knew it was safe and secure or maybe when you’re just choosing to settle with something it only looks that way. Besides when you have no one and only lookout for yourself that’s selfish is it not. I was not given any indication that i was in any danger was i not? I was simply told repeatedly “we are all a team and it takes teamwork, it takes communicating and compromising with one another everyone has their role and position to play.” Well that must be it, the reason why I am where I am on the outside looking in and no longer out. I didn’t play up to my role or position, I was supposed to be the lookout and I stumbled continously till I fell. I wasn’t a team player nor the excellent communicator to be apart of the team. So I have my answer for her, when she ask again who was looking out for you I can say “me, myself, I.” It was I who was supposed to be the lookout ,the one who would sheild all obstacles and opposition from and unfortunately my dear I was not very good at it.

Rose